BRAND NEW

today...
while the clock struck 8.30pm...

you will hear...
the emcee start talking...
the lights start coming out...
the people quiten down...

AND!!!
THE WHOLE STAGE COMES TO LIFE!!!!

In Dewan Taman Budaya!!!


YAY!!!!
another concert... which im involved...
its a music concert...

Playing in a BRAND NEW hall... (to me)
Playing with BRAND NEW partners... (for the first time)
Playing to BRAND NEW audience... (which i nvr met before)
Playing with BRAND NEW performers... (which nvr share the same stage... except for one)


HAHA!!! today i'll be performing in Dewan Taman Budaya...
and tomoro as well...
haha...
im feeling butterflies in my stomach now...
CHILLax JOHNNY!!!

im so happy and nervous...
haha

gtg get myself prepared...
its 5.25pm...
HOURS TO GO!!!

WISH ME LUCK~~

p/s:photos will be posted later~

The most disappointed perfomance or presentation...

Stage performance..
Was nt something new or fresh to me...
I am quite used to being on stage for singing, dancing, or playing (instruments)

10th May 2009...
It was mother's day celebration in my church...
And the whole team together with me in the team prepared a song--'MUM' especially for our mothers to appreciate them..
We are called to present a card and sing the song...

But...
It was nearly time for presentation...
My heart fell to the bottom of the mountain...
My mum was still nt in the hall yet...
I called her... she said waiting for dad to take a bath then come out...
So i went up the stage...
With a smile...
But my eyes are on the door... Staring and waiting that will she saw this performance...

I kept waiting...
Till my turn to say something to her...
But she's nt here...
I jz say few lines and i broke into tears while talking...

How sad that she cant see my performance again...

Thanks to Carissa, Charissa, Boo Lim, Aunty Camy, Aunty Adelene and other ppl who have supported me when im sad... Thx...

I still rmbr something Rachel told me that day...
She asked... why u're crying... ur mom wasn't there?
I nodded...
She said:

She's just not here for the performance... U can still wish her when u meet with her... It's nvr too late yet...

Didi's Birthday...

Bad Didi... ish...

Last Friday which is on the 3/4/09... And its my Didi's -- Jia Yong de birthday... haha... But kinda angry him... He call me go Pacific for his birthday... I told him that i havent eat and he promised to teman me eat first only go play..

BUT!!!! when i reached there... he said he's inside the skating place le... i told him to come out eat first then only go... ish... wasted my energy to run up and down calling him then he only wanna come down... ish... this bad bad didi... haha...

at last... he agreed to teman me eat at McDonalds... haha... so we eat... laugh and also share... *stole pizza's slogan* haha... anyway.. we had a great time eating and laughing... and i also had a great time bullying him... wakakaka... *wat a bad gor gor am i* KakazzzZ

then i go popular buy things... he also a zilian kuang... when i choosing things then he suddenly take out camera and zi pai with me... wakakaka...

Me and Jia Yong didi!!!

haha.. thx for teman me on tat day o... hehe... thx didi... muackx... ily~~

DREAMS... which will never come true...

I have a dream...
I try to fulfill it...
But I don't think that it will ever come true...

It it so virtual...
It seems like I can never grab hold of it...
Will it ever come true...

Time will have its way...


This dream... Inspired by a friend... Few years ago... But... None of us took the first step...

Today... Another friend... Reminded me bout this dream... His name is Stanley... I heard his song... It touches me so deeply... And I love that song...

You are talented... I'm not... I hope you dont give up this thing... Continue on... Jia you...

This dream... I might not succeed... But I hope you'll fulfill it...

CLOUDS...

wat will u think of when the word 'Clouds' come into ur mind at the first place?? how does it look like?? wat kinda feeling it gives to you??





For me... when this word came into my mind... it was a beatiful picture... white pieces with a nice blue background... i use my imagination to picture out some wonderful things... nice and pretty... clouds look simply beautiful... the feeling is... jz nice...


BUT... when i look at it after a moment... it has changed... it might changed to something better... but sometimes... it may have changed to become dark and scary picture... if u dont capture it now... it might change after sometime...

Ze... You are jz like clouds... you have changed... i cant have u anymore... im sorry... t'was all my fault... i feel im so selfish.. im sorry... i have captured u once... thx... maybe i will try to forget u... but i wouldnt forget how we've been through....

Once again... thank you... thx for the times u've been with me... thank you... but i have to leave u... im sorry... all my fault and now u're getting into trouble... im sorry...

Bye my Gor... My last time to call u Gor... Goodbye...

He is nt like tat when i first met him... He was changed...

haiz...
Charissa... is still the thing bout ong kah chun again...

i jz nw sent him a message in msn... i said hi and so on... he said tat he is bz watching naruto.. and called me a bitch... he called to nt to disturb him and make him pc lag.. i was like... 'WAT?! me again?!'

fine... i'm already used to it... but tat dat he suddenly came to msn and sent me a message... he was jz like repenting... my mom asked me wat happened to me and him... 'nothing'... she called me to take care of him... then bring him to church lah... blah blah blah... i jz said ok...

my heart was thinking 'as if he will listen to me like last time? like NEVER!' uhh... i cant reach the goal... anyway...

shud i forgive him or nt... my frens are mostly againts him nw... and tat day pastor jz said forgive everyone... the first name tat came to my mind was his name... haiz... maybe God called me to forgive... i dun wan to disobey... but how??? i forgive him he also like tat... haiz... dunno wat to do...

My sister... My sister... AGAIN!!!!

every single time!!!! jz noe how to think bout my SISTER!!!
so wat??!?
i noe im nt as good as her in badminton... her badminton fee doesn't cost u a lot... its still cheap even though u have to pay for the tournament's regristration fee...
i noe tat my piano lesson fee cost u a hand and a leg... plus my exam fee u will RUN OUT of CASH!!!!

so wat if she's better than me... im still ur son right??!!
she wan buy this and that... "OK!"
when i jz wan a pair of new shoe which i've lost it like for nearly 3 years... "Why so expensive... dun need buy yet lah"

ok... let me tell u... she bought a new badminton bag... which cost RM1xx
i wanted to buy a pair of shoe... jz hundred plus... and she dun let... she can give her buy things she wanted... like YONEX shirt... pants... skirt... and wateva stuffs...
but I CAN'T!!!!

i noe im nt better than her in sports... i noe my talents costs more money to develop than hers.... u cant blame me tat i have talents in music right?!!

ENOUGH OF IT!!! always take care of her emotionally... physically and mentally...
wat about me??!?!!! im still alive as ur son!!!!
u doesnt care bout wat i feel... wat i think.... and even wat i want... always scolding me for this and that!!! never think bout my feelings!!!! fck!!!!

stop always sighting on her u bitch!!!!